Pheelings

Such a weird thing, coming on at the wrong time, for the wrong reasons and most of the time for the wrong people. I wish sometimes, it could just be turned off when not needed. Even this latest case of them coming up for me is just weird because of the person and circumstances involved.

I'm at this point where 2 months past the break up, I'm ok for another relationship but still I don't want to get into one, just because. I don't want to like anyone at the moment, because I have too much work and more importantly because I don't want to.

This has happen before and the solution was to stay away from her, but this time around, due to circumstances, I literally have to get closer to her. Saying why, will actually give away the person. She is a lot of things I like and look for in a woman, but somehow , I know inside there is no use pursuing this because it's not going to work out.

But looking further into it, I think it's more of knowing it won't workout, that makes this weird but moreover, I just don't want to go through any heartbreak and build up false expectations, I simply don't have the patience or the time to actually deal with it.

Oh well, I don't know if I'm in denial or not, but as much as I would love something to happen, I don't want it to go into the awkward. Sigh, tis a dilemma, hopefully this is just a temporary thing that I will forget tomorrow.