Chapter 4

Been quite the while since the last few chapters, if you can even call them that. They more of full stops to a period where love was what once mattered. The same goes for a year ago. I remember this day a year ago well. We got down that bottle of JD and hit Wesley after acting and drank away the world to reach the grey mind domain in the hope we would stay there long. Long not for me though. I remember getting up and picking M up on the way to church after a while. While meaning 2 or 3 years. Thing about faith is that what starts with the Dogma's and ceremonies goes to the next step. Absolute faith and the exercise of it being putting trust in faith. But then again, religion for me ends there. God exists, his plan exists, I just acknowledge both and will my soul with spirituality, and the language of souls - music. The world and humanity were things I used to care about, what then again, both don't care about you. You have one shot at life and only you're to blame if you don't make it to where you want to be. If you're not going to swing, don't bring. Then again, I never cared for boundaries and superficiality,the great never followed the rules. It's not like anyone remembers those who set the rules, right? We're all here to blaze trails and in the process, end with a story worth writing about, or have your name in the line of a song. Things have moved a long way since my last post, and I sure have been a busy man. I don't know how I got this job, but the point is I have, and I'm here to make a mark. These people see something in me that I don't, but everyone who has, has never been wrong. Every place I've worked, now numbering 5, I've been the youngest and most inexperienced, yet I've left exceeding expectation. I have God to thank for giving me this gift if I have one. To the average person, the last few lines may sound vain, but then again, I have the right to be vain. When you have been through the things I have and done the things I have, you will understand that. But that doesn't mean I'm not humble in my pursuits. Memento Mori - Remember your mortality, you will die any minute, make every minute you've spent before that worth it. Waking up to that thought really shapes how you go on through the day. Hope getting that tattooed goes well. Oh well, it's been a challenging and rewarding year, one that continues to get better. I hope the people who were part of it are happy, I know the people who are still in it are. They're all that matter.